Music: “I’m Not Alone” by Calvin Harris
Watching: Initial D, Hakuouki
Playing: Heroes of Newerth
Wanted List: Job
There are lots of times in your life that you find yourself as the most happiest person in the world, and isn’t it just hard to know that all your hapiness depends on the happiness of another person? Sometimes you go down to the bottom and find yourself at the pits of hell. You also know that someday, later or sooner, you’ll come out and say hello to the world. Everything you wanted the most, everything you worked hard to achieve, might one day disappear in a flash of a light. Ironically, I also experience the loss of a lots of fellow friends and family.
As I tried my best to help them as much as I can I got stabbed in the back and people shoved down my throat my own words, and my own feelings. As they felt joy of expressing they’re feelings about me, they did what was best to them, to step away from me. I won’t blame them. I’m really good and caring person but I can also be an idiot, but who isn’t? Is it too hard to admit defeat? Is it too easy to just go away and forget everything you worked hard on? Even if it could help just a little dozen of people? What if you could achieve victory by doing meaningless actions, just like I did? There are a lot of questions that some people won’t find the answear because, Life is Tricky, and I’ve been tricked more than once. I don’t feel any need to tell you, fellow readers, how deeply sorry and sad I am, but I do hope somewhere in this world, there’s someone perfect enough to understand that nothing is perfect.